For those of us who are not activistically or otherwise inclined, it seems the only gift, or talent we have to throw into the pool of this vision we of fringe ilk all have for the rebirth of the earth and the introduction to the rest of all of the life outside of this earthly sphere.
And I must admit, that at times this gift, this part of the equation that we contribute is hard to do. It is not an outside of yourself endeavor. It is a strong quiet joyful insistence on the calling into being of an opened ended dream. Because it must be what it will be – you must hold that space open in your heart for its gestation and invention while contributing your joy and umph with all that you are, so that it can emerge.
There are times when I forget that is my task. And I want to be a researcher, and I want to be a Scientist and I want to be an activist and really DO something. And there are times when I get reassured that all is moving along. Like on cold night in April…
(I share this from my contact journal with Kosta’s ET Let’s Talk group monthly CE5s. I do these very differently from most people because I don’t expect a nuts and bolts type meeting. Most of this is in my Mind’s Eye…)
It was cold outside and I was early. So I really wasn’t expecting much. This time the dog-boys stayed inside so as not to incur the wrath of the next door neighbor. I started by waiting to see which area of the sky I felt drawn to. Jupiter was very bright in the sky that night and I kept scanning the sky to the right (south) of it. There were halos around the points of light due to the light fog. Next I projected myself up past the atmosphere to hang out in the area I felt I needed to be, and there was a craft there of blue-ish light. Looking around, once again there were people already there. They seemed to be engaged in a group type of synergy (busy) so I came back down into me. I did cast out the question to whomever, “What can I do to help?” I felt sorry that I didn’t have much to offer in the way of resources or talents, and at a loss. While I thinking this, I would swear that in my mind’s eye an energy person (male, tall, in blue energy: and while the craft was cerulean blue, he was light cyan, his heart area was white) was just suddenly there. I could make out no features, just a shape. I got the sweetest feeling of compassion and understanding. This person reached out and touched me. I felt it in my head but I think he touched my arm. A torrent of communication followed for about 2 seconds. (may be why my head hurt…lol) Basically I was reassured that what I was doing was what was needed. Then he left. The whole thing lasted maybe 3 minutes. Then I said, “Wait! Let me go get my phone to use the star maps I want to know where you are from.” I ran inside and came back out with the google star maps up. (and yes I used GPS) so I figured a good place to start was at Jupiter… But, no matter where I pointed the phone, the ONLY thing that came up was the constellation of Eridani. (1) I even turned the program off and brought it back up. Then the thought bomb hit, “Oh! That’s where you are from!” lol As soon as I realized that, Jupiter was displayed and labeled beautifully on the phone right where it was supposed to be. I can be really dense… So, all day yesterday I had been pondering what one little old lady can do to help. What I always forget is that energy exercise of “Holding the Space”. That means that in your mind’s eye and heart you hold open the possibilities for something wondrous, magical, and transforming to occur, manifest, to become. You hold the space…. I can do that. Grandmas are good at that. We do that for everybody. So, at the holiday season, along with wishes for love and light and joy, I’m going to be holding the space in my heart and mind for things of highest order to happen for all beings everywhere.
There are times on this earth that you just look at everything and wonder how such an impossible task can occur and you just have to keep reminding yourself that that small fleeting whisper you hear in your heart is the greatest truth you will ever know. And keep on keep’in on.