The Fifth Form of Prayer

This fifth mode of prayer, the “lost mode,” is a prayer that’s based solely in feeling. … Without any words, without our hands held in a certain position or any outward physical expression, this mode of prayer simply invites us to feel a clear and powerful feeling as if our prayers have already been answered.    Secrets of the Lost Mode of Prayer – Kryon

This is our direct connection to the source. The zero point field is always responding to our every feeling. When we use words to pray, we enter onto a slippery slope, because most of those words are putting a time constraint on what we are asking for or what we want. If you pray ‘Please let there be peace’ you are saying in that prayer that peace doesn’t exist and that it will come in the future instead of right now. You have unknowingly put a little time glitch in your prayer.

The universe or the zero point field immediately responds to you and gives you what you asked for. It doesn’t second guess you, or decide upon the merit of the prayer – it simply creates what you had in your desire – your message to it. Bam! There it is.

The feeling prayer is how we speak to creation in every moment and how we bring into reality the world we are living in and our circumstances instantaneously. What most of us don’t realize is that the mere act of existing IS the prayer. This is why as we launch into the journey of self-actualization/realization we begin by noticing our thoughts and our feelings about those thoughts. This is why we learn to meditate. This is why, although right in some respects and not in others, the new age movement asks us to continuously try to stay in good thoughts. The little glitch there is that ignoring something doesn’t work, because it IS part of the thought process and what the universe does with that type of feeling is create a separation – because in essence, that is what you are asking for. The other ‘little’ glitch is what you are expecting and your intentions about it, will manifest before a created wish, as they are a direct product of an emotional chain of events.

Emotional maturity, the place where you have or are working through how you feel and why you do feel it and being aware of what you are feeling, has proven a great asset to those who are working in the quantum mind field. One of the first things scientists noticed who were working in the field of cold fission is that those who were skeptical had a negative effect on the success of the experiments, and that those who expected a positive result, got them, what it boiled down to was the ability to allow the universe to perform without the constraints of what the outcome should/would be by the experimenters involved with the experiment.

In quantum mechanics, the expectation value is the probabilistic expected value of the result (measurement) of an experiment. It is not the most probable value of a measurement; indeed the expectation value may have zero probability of occurring. It is a fundamental concept in all areas of quantum physics. From <https://www.google.com/search?q=expectation+value+quantum+mechanics&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjRifzj47jVAhUJ0YMKHebsCswQ1QIIWigA&biw=1600&bih=754>

 

Where this leads to is that should we FEEL with our hearts as if a thing is current – already happened, then the quantum field makes it so – the universe gets a clear command from you and makes it so. I have done this on accident several times in my life, and I also found that according to my belief system, in this case something can’t come from nothing when I wished for a thing and also the time out there was unspecified, but not now:

  1. I had put the constraint on time unknowing about when out into the future
  2. I didn’t expect it to come from nowhere, so somebody I knew gave it to me.
  3. It happened in a week to a month of the wish being released from my consciousness and forgotten about.
  4. I never expected to get what I wished for, it was someday it would be nice thought. (therefore I could let go of it easily)

What this boils down to is that the language of the heart is the DIRECT connection to the quantum field of all possibilities. What you wish for in its purest form you will get. Jerry Wills talks about healing by stating the result- not asking for it. If you have a lot of negative beliefs that you are unaware of that stand in the way of your wishes, they will not manifest. (that’s like sending out a yes/no message that leaves the quantum field in idle mode) It also has a lot to do with your underlying field of emotions.

Here is where it gets tricky – where we are unwittingly being used all together to control the planet – not for our own good and intents and wishes – but for others more nefarious purposes. It is where we are being used against ourselves.

I have written, yelled, cajoled, and generally made a pain in the ass of myself over this – others, quite more eloquently, have made stunning points, elucidated and educated us on this – like Richard Dolan, Jim Mars, Freeman, Icke et al, that we are purposely being manipulated into an emotional maelstrom of fear, negative expectations and helplessness. WHY, you ask? (glad you did – the pt. of this little foray into quantum bed time stories)

I’ll tell you WHY.

This fifth form of prayer – our hook up to the source – is CONSTANT. We are never NOT talking to the quantum field/god/source/universe. NEVER! WE ARE THE PRODUCT OF THIS FIELD. We live, breathe, think, move, exist and are aware in this field – in fact; we are a sensory organ of this field. We are not separate. We are never NOT creating our expectations.

THEREFORE:

When you feel ‘as if’ a situation or thing you want is ALREADY created and you are immersed in it and loving it – it becomes instantaneous. This is a prayer that is ALL FEELING. No words. Words are tricky and we have been taught to use them wrongly and to our detriment when talking to universe (universe is my word from the ten thousand names of god).

 

So there is it is from: quantum fission – zero point field – Greg Braden’s The God Code, Richard Dolan’s new series on Gaia about False Flags (most of that info can already be found on line) all the deep state researchers, the one tiny new age misconception that is the fly in the ointment, to what happens when you get it straight.

 

Carry on.

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When two realities collide: Why I wish I was going to the ECETI Ranch

More than anything, I wish I was going out to ECETI ranch for the 2017 conference. Every time I listen to James Gilliland he reminds me of all that I know and knew and forgot from being a kid to 60+ years later.

I listened to two interviews today James’s As You Wish Talk Radio Show and Max Igan “The Coming 5G Roll-out & AI Will Transform Human Society By 2025!” . The two shows couldn’t be more diametrically opposed. However, both shows are about realities that exist side by side at this moment on earth. There is a third point I would mention that Alex Collier talks about concerning, the galaxy as a whole and a singularity that happens around this time that traps our entire galaxy in a fourth Reich sort of control system –  that he says the A’s and a number of other races tracked down to earth in this here and now. I would say that the Max Igan interview outlines the start of the singularity quite clearly. We see the results of the beginning of the singularity daily as it invades our lives beyond what he can even notice as dangerous because it is so underhanded.

Then there is James Gilliland, who presents the organic side of the equation. His reasoning is effortless and easy to understand. On a very human level he calls it as it is, and I don’t know about you, but when I listen it’s like I’ve always known what he’s saying. It could be because he calls up that memory from my soul, or it could be because I do know it, from all the contact and study I have done this life time.

The point is, that no matter how much I like technology, it feels ominous. I’ve been talking about our organic technology for the last several years on my blog – and I have used my own for a very long time. It is inbuilt. It is easier than you ‘think’ – in fact, you don’t think to use it… Everybody has it and you don’t have to do anything special, eat anything special, perform any special mental gymnastics, or any such nonsense. You only have to get past the programming that says if it happens in your mind ‘it ain’t real’ and manage to sit still out in nature for more than 5 minutes. Why out in nature? To get as far away from wifi and any other broadcast waves as you can. But really, you don’t need to because, should you decide, those vibes can’t stop you either, but they can be a distraction.

You’ve got to understand that what you have been told about who you are and what you can do is nothing more than a false set of precepts about what you should think about yourself and life. Artists and musicians tend to get around these falsities a little easier than some because the key to going there is imagination. The biggest lie told of all time to everybody is: “Oh, it’s all just in your imagination.” (as if they need you to discount that entire part of yourself) when, really, it’s the key to everything.

For instance, you use your imagination to pray to God, you use your imagination when you meditate, you use your imagination when you read a book, when you doodle, when you day dream, when the ‘I wonder about’ questions pop up in your mind. You are always using it – but you have been taught to pretend that you don’t. Talk about pink elephants…

…it’s easier than you think…

The transhuman agenda would have us believe that we cannot do any of those things without a device. It would have us believe that we are powerless in our human form. It will suck us in, bit by bit, until there is nothing left of the human soul and imagination and then prove to us we are worthless.

Therein is the trap.

I will just leave this here.

Think about it. Ask your imagination what it thinks about it. Go there. It’s going to matter – a lot.

Our Fearless Children

 

If you are 40, or younger – you are part of a wave of intelligences born on this planet with enough genetic light codes open to be able to see and effect this planet differently. Not only that, you are part of the actual action taking place on this planet right now that is changing the entire paradigm. We need you. The planet needs you. You were born thinking out of the box and pretty much immune to the mind programming on the planet. You were born with everything active. You were born with all your light turned on.

As this planet is used for radical spiritual growth, if you are born here, you have lived through adequate catalyst to ensure that growth. Kinda like gorilla spiritual advancement turned on full tilt boogey. Active light, like fire, requires ignition to manifest. Catalyst is ignition. At ignition there is a choice. Ignition is like the moment just before movement or action. You can go forward in the direction of the momentum, or at that moment of pause, change the forward direction, or totally stop the forward momentum, stumble and fall. The bravest of you have gone forward like a rocket blasting into your highest path, lighting up the planet.

Not all of you have been in the limelight, a great proportion of you have instead shown your light into your inner lives, your daily lives, changing all whom you’ve met in one way or another. You have taught your children well, and made a place for them to safely be filled with even more light. Your inner integrity sometimes making you frustrated in a world of older people who are almost alien in the depths of their programming. Just know, that there are a few of us older adults out there that were born like you and we do understand. You are changing the world one person at a time, and most of you will never know the effect you have had on all of the lives you have touched. (grin, so I’m telling you)

Therefore, as you have your families and begin taking the place of the older adults, you are changing the paradigm to a greater light filled world. Your children will even maker it brighter, and so on. So even if there is no great Kabooom! from our perspective, even if the planet isn’t scooted forward in ascension in the blink of an eye, it is STILL happening. Further, in somebody’s time structure it is happening in the blink of an eye.

I am very happy and proud of all of you. I am satisfied that the wave of loving intelligence is alive and well on this planet and she is already saved – in the future – and that when I leave this gem hanging in this sector of space, all will be well. It will be as foretold to me – a heartbeat of loving energy reaching out to all that need it in our galaxy.

I am well pleased.

When we all wake up

IMO.

When we all wake up we will realize, all of us, that we are all the ‘aliens’ (that term is almost funny now) we have been waiting for, not just some of us, but the entire population of this planet both inside and out.

Every. Single. Last. One. Of. Us.

We HAVE passed the tipping point and we are beginning that roll down the other side with continuously increasing speed. One day, we will all just know. It will not be a OMG moment, or a ‘holy shit!’ moment… It will not be hidden, it will not get you in trouble or abducted or even laughed at. It will finally be normal.

One day we will know the real history of this planet and the events that took place, and not just from the victor’s point of view. We will have the basis for a deep understanding of why we are and how we are, what we are. We will all realize that we are multidimensional beings with all the organic equipment in place to do whatever we wish to do, in whatever realm we wish to do it.

We have awakened from this trance many times and many times have fallen back to sleep. Some of us, even yet will decide to still sleep this time, for it is all free will. Most of us, though, all spurred on by the great dissent we feel, will choose to stay awake and go on.

For those that decide to sleep, their multidimensional beingness will slumber on – but still be there for we are all whole beings whether we choose to know it or not.

In this last awakening there are those who came so early that their only job was to be alive and resonate, helping Gaia and the planetary vibe. To these people, who had to hide, who had to say nothing, who knew that they were in danger if they did, to those who spent their entire lives battling with what they knew to be true and what society instead demanded they be, it is to you I send heartfelt sympathy. You couldn’t have known what to do with yourselves. Every situation you got yourself into, relationships, careers, spiritual traditions and churches never fit. You had nowhere that felt like home, and no one that could really understand you. Even so, you pushed on. Sometimes in a world of hurt, sometimes numb from the pain. But you kept on. It is because of you that the world can now begin to heal, that the conspiracies to fool us all are becoming known and that people are beginning to awaken to the beauty of who they really are. It was you who held on through all the confusion and darkness that has made this shift possible.

A great influx of advanced souls were being born on this planet back in the 1800’s in preparation for today. I come from a long linage of them. It has not been an easy journey for these forerunners, especially those who were born after WWI when the extreme prejudice and crackdown on anything that even looked like it could help the planet began. What happened after that into modern day looked like the witch hunts of the 1600’s. The fact that these early fore runners of consciousness to whatever degree they were awake, managed to stay sane, were able to survive in a profoundly sick society, is an utterly amazing and a herculean task. I have seen it go both ways. I have seen incredibly beautiful souls get utterly crushed and I have seen others endure when over and over life has shown them nothing but pain. Soon this will be different. Those who were born in the fifties and before have had an entirely different journey than those born after. In today’s world we have children who are readily accepted and supported for they gifts they bring.

To some extent, we are all slightly mad – like the mad hatter. We have all been poisoned, indoctrinated and thoroughly chastised for being ourselves in myriads of ways. That we survived all of that only slightly deranged is the miracle of the century. That we are recovering, getting stronger, deciding to be better people is an ever greater miracle. We have passed the tipping point – that place at the top of the roller coaster where you can either fall back or speed on down the hill, and we have gone down the other side. We made it. That feeling we all feel of expectancy is free fall. And we can partially thank all those souls who came and just resonated love and gratitude on the planet in the middle of the darkness and mess to make it possible for the rest of us to awaken from the trance.

Blessed be every last one of you.

So rejoice, because very soon, this earth will finally be a place where you too can take a deep breath and relax.

Last night on F2B: Joy

Last night on the Jimmy Church Radio show, F2B (Fade to Back) we had guest James Gilliland. It struck me what a happy person he is. Not silly happy, but down deep happy, and therefore everything that he said, all his words, even if he was talking about difficult things, felt good. So many times I will listen to people reporting the difficult side of life – the pizza gates, the reptilians, the abductions, the satanic cults… and the tone of their voice, the vibe of their intelligence which rides their voice and words like a carrier wave is enormously depressing and negative. Sometimes even if their words are not about negative topics, what rides under their words is very dark.

Last night the presence and joy in the voice on the radio radiated warmth and humor like a bubbling spring. This translated to me and I awoke feeling happier than I have in weeks. What a gift! The best contacts I have had over the years have been the ones where there is a quiet joy bubbling (yes – bubbling, I like that word because that’s what it feels like to me) all around the experience. It is always how I know there is a positive being present.

In the last couple of years not all of them have been that way – and I immediately pull out and slam the energy barrier I use up and close down the communication. James is right,

“If you don’t like what you are feeling, do a healing!” – as soon as you feel it, and then talk to whomever is left.

rep10He said so many easy positive things last night. I have not voted for 20+ years for the very same reason he hasn’t – I did blog that… He talked about ET’s and what they looked like – since christmas (yes, little c) I have created 200+ mug shots of people. I asked to see them and they just come through for me. All I had to do was ask… they are all beautiful – even the reptilians – maybe I talk to their higher selves…who knows. There isn’t an ugly one in the bunch – maybe I just see the best side of them… I mean in my mind’s eye even I look 37… grins

Just from listening to his voice last night, I felt empowered and happy and strong and life was juicy again. I know I report on some harsh topics – like my last blog post – and it is hard for me to do it – but it needs done. It has a cost. I’d love to do nothing but post about sweetness and light. However, IMO we need to be aware of these things that would rob us of choice in the matter – the blindfold so to speak, that we might take it off before we hit the chopping block.

face20I’d really love to see these people in real life instead of having them have to sneak through in a channeled drawing – but this is 3D, and it is hard for most of them to appear here, now. Well, maybe if I get better at holding a higher frequency – becoming a stable emanating point of joy like James Gilliland, then I just might be able to consciously meet those whom I’ve known existed since the day I was born. It’s something to work towards….

The Opened Heart plus the Enlightened Mind

The Opened Heart plus the Enlightened Mind becomes the third (trinary) co-creative possibility that forms our reality, instantaneously. The Opened Heart is one that has healed or is healing from the pit that the controllers have made of this world. The Enlightened Mind is the one that sees through the tricks to understand how it was done. The two together are what formulate the passion that arises from within that not only has the power to walk away from it all, but to co-create with the earth a new paradigm.

We see the healing of the heart going on all around us daily as I mentioned in my last little blip, and we are coming to realize the mind-management that we are dealing with even in the alternative information fields as we uncover all the damage that has been done and see the directing influence trying to point us back down into darkness.

Here is where the nitty gritty work begins. Because we must be aware of the causes of our trashed world and our mind cages to be able to CHOOSE to say no. And then, we must have an enormous power of love behind it all to choose not to exact revenge, but to disempower the whole thing by choosing to love the entire world and heal it, instead.

However you are called to do this is the way it should be done. There will be as many ways as there are people, once our subconscious-consensus realizes the power we have to create and heal. And we will. Because we were made that way. We were made to love and cherish all of what and whom we encounter. We were made to stand and emit waves of intelligent infinity, or love to all of creation. We were made to be creators. We are known, even at this dark level of mind we are breaking out of as ‘clever’ people throughout the galaxy. When we figure out how to operate above where we are now, with this intelligent infinity shinning out from us and co-create with all that we encounter, then truly, will we have come into our birthright to be a gift to creation.

This was an epiphany I had back in grade school. I had just encountered the idea of world-ending-disaster and was so destroyed at the possibility that I could barely function. I was sitting staring out my window searching for a different truth from somewhere, when the idea of a shining earth, and enlightened, wonderful people creating a frequency of love so bright and beautiful that it streamed throughout the galaxy (I thought small in those days) and that all who felt it would come here for healing and love. The intuitive hit was so strong, it was so wondrous and beautiful that it completely cured the sadness over what I considered from that moment on – wrong information. That was when I stopped believing in the bible and all of what I considered it’s twisted meanness. I knew with every fiber of my being that the radiant earth was the real truth.

I have struggled all my life to step away from mean spirited, small minded, divisive, exclusionary minds. Nothing has caused me greater pain. Because of that, I have barely lived ‘in’ this world. I’ve floated the edges, staying away from systems and entrenchments. Because of that, I have accomplished very little in the way this world judges success, but it doesn’t matter. What does matter to me, is clarity of mind, perception and a sensitive heart. All of which, in any of us who are awake has been through the ringer of late.

And yet, I keep getting those intuitive hits that say ‘Look! Look around – it’s gotten better, take heart, it is happening’. We just need to stay the course, hold the vision and never give up. (Kinda of like that last sit up…you know you can do it) To compare this to the birthing process – we are in transition. Hold on to your hats because it really truly is happening. It is already real.

Becoming

Have you noticed lately that we are all becoming? Becoming new, different and shedding much from our systems that we don’t want? People we know are finding the courage to become new lovers, new husbands and wives, new healers, new writers and podcasters, new artists and truth tellers? This theme of new is emerging in the subconscious consensus much the same way the new green shoots of grass and the budding of the leaves on the trees in spring happens.

Underneath all the world’s current supposed ugliness, new growth is happening and coming out all over the place like spring flowers in a forest poking through last year’s decayed leaves. There seems to be a loosening of the old constraints around our creative souls, around the expression of our true selves. I’m seeing it everywhere I look, and not because I was looking for it beforehand. It’s because it’s in my face. (now if we could just do something about my face…lmao)

There is an undercurrent of joy emerging in the face (there is that word again) of the starkest conditions outside of WWII I have ever witnessed. And it’s NOT a movement – an exterior idea that everybody is getting on the bandwagon with – no – it’s a true emergence from inside the genuine spirit of humanity.

It’s a new vibe, a new inner loosening of ages of sadness, a wonder to behold. I am thankful beyond belief. It’s contagious too. Just seeing it lightens my heart and asks me to widen the crack in my old heart that the joy and light might get in a bit more. To me it heralds the upliftment of Gaia from the very vibe of the universe and we are the expression of that. It’s happening – it’s finally beginning. The best thing is, the more it spreads, through the undercurrent of the consensus mind of the world, the more people will begin to be touched by it. It’s algorithmic. Spreading like an avalanche.

All I can say from what I have seen is that this under current of growth, opening and joy is what I have been waiting for all my life. It gives me hope for this planet and its peoples and our role in the future.

Carry on…

Do NOT Fall Back to Sleep!!!

My heart wants to celebrate for Standing Rock. It really does.

However, my gut tells me that this is only a small win in a much larger problem. This is the first indication that people are becoming aware of what is going on under their noses as they are distracted by many other things, the use and decimation of the planet and themselves as a commodity to be sold for profit regardless of what it does to the planet and it’s peoples.

 

In an excellent article written this morning, on the site: Censored News by Brenda Norrell, She said,

“DAPL Permit denied by Army Corps, DAPL says it will proceed anyway. Army Corps denied DAPL permit on Sunday, but DAPL owners said that nothing has changed and it will proceed as planned.

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This was published by Energy Transfer Partners (the people who are building the pipeline) this morning:

In spite of consistently stating at every turn that the permit for the crossing of the Missouri River at Lake Oahe granted in July 2016, comported with all legal requirements, including the use of an environmental assessment, rather than an environmental impact statement, the Army Corps now seeks to engage in additional review and analysis of alternative locations for the pipeline.

The White House’s directive today to the Corps for further delay is just the latest in a series of overt and transparent political actions by an administration which has abandoned the rule of law in favor of currying favor with a narrow and extreme political constituency.

As stated all along, ETP and SXL are fully committed to ensuring that this vital project is brought to completion and fully expect to complete construction of the pipeline without any additional rerouting in and around Lake Oahe. Nothing this Administration has done today changes that in any way. From: http://www.businesswire.com/news/home/20161204005090/en/

Obviously they intend to get their way whether they do it legally or not.  Below is a list of their partners published in the same article, who I am assuming are in total agreement with the policy of get it done any way you can.

About Energy Transfer Partners

Energy Transfer Partners, L.P. (NYSE: ETP) is a master limited partnership that owns and operates one of the largest and most diversified portfolios of energy assets in the United States. ETP’s subsidiaries include Panhandle Eastern Pipe Line Company, LP (the successor of Southern Union Company) and Lone Star NGL LLC, which owns and operates natural gas liquids storage, fractionation and transportation assets. In total, ETP currently owns and operates more than 62,500 miles of natural gas and natural gas liquids pipelines. ETP also owns the general partner, 100% of the incentive distribution rights, and approximately 67.1 million common units in Sunoco Logistics Partners L.P. (NYSE: SXL), which operates a geographically diverse portfolio of crude oil and refined products pipelines, terminalling and crude oil acquisition and marketing assets. ETP’s general partner is owned by Energy Transfer Equity, L.P. For more information, visit the Energy Transfer Partners, L.P. web site at www.energytransfer.com. From <http://www.businesswire.com/news/home/20161204005090/en/>

Brenda Norrell then goes on to say,

“The question is now whether President Obama will send in law enforcement or the military to halt DApL from drilling without a permit. Otherwise, today’s announcement will have no enforcement, It will be seen as another U.S. and corporate ploy to send home water protectors, and thousands of veterans, now at Standing Rock Camp, where more than 10,000 are camped.”

As you can see, the opening salvo has been settled, sort of. I cannot stress enough, the continued need for prayer, vigilance, non-violent protest. The game will be to next, distract us from this issue (which if it blossoms will go worldwide and on to other issues). At this point, this victory – IMO, this step in the right direction is actually meant to distract us from continuing. They would like us all to go home and quit playing ‘the game’. Even more so, now that the mainstream media has gotten involved, expect them to slant this story and this news to the underlying agenda of the larger game, quietly and insidiously trying spin our opinion on the situation to their controlled, controlling, proscribed view of things.

victory3Which is exactly what we CANNOT do!

Don’t give up!

Don’t give in!

and Don’t fall back asleep!

Expect very obvious, but nasty tactics to be next on the game plan. The fact that many woke up and added their voice to this issue is a major indicator that we are ready to be awake, and we must persevere. Because we have taken the first step along a long path towards the right direction, in freeing ourselves.

 

Praying in utter peace, praying in an utterly nonviolent stance.

Yet standing firm in this rising frequency, adamant and unmovable for what is right.

And because of this prayer, we, the world, finally realize that it is our hearts that connect, it is our love for us and the planet that has the power.

This is a boots on the ground demonstration of that principle that will unite a whole world in peace.

A statement of sacred peace that has a strength to out weight the idiotic and clueless controllers.

This will work, because it cannot fail.

This is the future.

This is our future, as we build it.

This is sacred, this is beautiful.

John Mack and ramblings about strangeness in my life

“This is an outreach program from the cosmos to the consciously impaired.” -John Mack

“Touched: The Extreme Experience Research of Dr. John Mack” is a movie documentary that I watched this morning, it brought all this up for me. I highly recommend it.

I still wake up with injuries – weird marks and aches and pains that happened while I lay sleeping in my bed at night. Do I remember a damned thing? No. It is just as well, because in my younger days when my dreams kept me in a half waking state all night and I would wake up in the morning totally exhausted and because I had young children, I put a ‘stop-dreaming’ injunction in my brain so I could sleep. I have not been able to lift that injunction, and only rarely do my dreams bleed through to morning memory. When they do, I am always arguing a point in front of people, much like a lawyer. If there had been or was some resolution, I might not have stopped the dreaming, but there never was. It was like continuously debating to deaf ears. So it is just as well. This blog may be a symptom of that.

This morning I awoke to find a bruise on the outer upper corner along the orbit of my eye, just under the arch of my left eyebrow. I have scoop marks, they eventually fill in, I have times that I waken and the exhaustion is so deep that it makes even me wonder what the heck went on while I slept. There are times when I go to sleep with a problem – with the intension that I would like to be healed by morning and that also happens.

Lately I have been really asking how I just know what I know – how I can even say what I say and the provenance of such information. I have wondered if I am just a mind controlled little robot spouting the party line for some hooligan somewhere. Yes, I have studied consciousness information all my life and with everything I have come across – there is a sense of familiarity. They also all say basically the same thing. So who knows? Maybe it went in my brain and re-organized and is now coming out….

If you look at the symptomology list associated with abducted people – I fit the bill nicely. I have had the missing pregnancies, the icky-weird feeling of waking and feeling strange… But my poor consciousness is either too weak or too old to break through to any actual memory of what went on behind my metaphorical back. That is singularly frustrating in a myriad of ways. Trust me.

I speak out a lot and I know people just think I’m nuts. I have no story to back up what I am saying, no experience terrifying or otherwise and I’ve only ever seen a nuts and bolts craft two or three times in my life. But that is probably because I would much rather talk to the passengers than see the craft.

Now that is something I do have many experiences of.

Recently, about two years ago, I know I met in the flesh one of my alien hybrid children. I’m almost certain. ( it’s back in the blog somewhere.) I have had passing contact with people who are alien (off planet) and no, I don’t mean break-away – I mean from other planets. Can I prove that? No. How do I know? When it happens you are allowed to know, you just do, but in my case it has always been a gift, and I have no wish to counter these people and come right out and ask. It has been positive, never negative and I always get the feeling that they are pleased that there are people who are awake enough to notice. The whole point of that game is to notice, and let it be. Although one day…. But everybody now is way too busy trying to keep the world from exploding, at least the ones I’d like to talk to and it will have to wait.

The above quote from John Mack is all too brilliant and true. We are consciously impaired. VERY consciously impaired. To the rest of the cosmos we are like people we see here who have been in a terrible accident and cannot reach out of their body anymore to communicate, but are none the less still in there and still very aware. – like Stephen Hawking. A brilliant mind trapped in a minimally functioning body.

I wish with all my heart that one day my damned mind could actually expand enough – come on line enough to have contact. Right now, because of the dire situation here on this planet, I am practicing sovereignty and to have uninvited contact would be a breach of my free will. But should I open to contact, there is no way to be assured that who talks to me is of a positive nature, because my discernment abilities and my spiritual mind are not developed enough. So I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. But I know good people from off planet exist, because the contacts that I can remember have all been good ones, and these are the people I would love to get to know. Someday, after the outreach program has helped a little (or a lot), after the 1000 year bullshit war being fought here is over and we then are not so consciously impaired, someday when we can wrap our heads around being multidimensional beings ourselves, sigh, someday day – as the fairytale goes…

I’m Over It! – reality check (yes, it’s a rant)

It’s all true.

All of it. They can take all their cover-up lies, bread and circus, artificial stimulation and stuff it! It’s time we all get over it too. Just go there. Everything we have ever been told in the last 100 years is a sham and a lie. Most science, most history and especially most technology. Who we are and who we think we are at totally different ends of the spectrum. There is ET life all over this planet – including us.

JUST GET OVER IT!

I don’t think there is one piece of information that could make me ‘reality check’ any more. I’m so over it that it has closed the circle for me and I’m back at; If this is true: then lets integrate it and get on with the next step. What would be the next step? IMO it would be trashing each bit of mind control programming, both emotional and intellectual and piece by piece regaining my truth. Why do I say my truth? Well, because your truth will be different from mine because you are different from me – we will have a basic direction that is the same – but the inner realizations, my truth and yours will be slightly different. That aside, what could my inner truth look like?

We live on a planet where many multiples of intelligent species live. Some are indigenous, some just want to explore this place, others want to take over and control this space, some want to farm this space (us included as a product), some want to engage with us, others want to investigate us and still others have been running experiments on us for quite some time in one way or another.

That aside, I maintain I am sovereign in as much as my understanding and level of learning can allow me to be. I intend to embody that principle as best I can as I go on. What does that mean in my actual living space? Well, Integrity, honesty, and gentleness of spirit. It means I will conduct myself and my energies as best I can to promote peace and love to those around me, those I interact with and those I have contact with. Whomever and whatever you are. Humans have a great capacity for turning emotion and experience into wisdom and artistic expression. We produce a ‘something’ from what we learn and integrate. We change quickly. So much so that we do the cargo cult thing quite easily. We have been adapted to look for leaders and gurus and gods and teachers and ‘fixers’.

This current rash of whistle blowers and truth tellers and revealers and most of our ilk’s investment in the story and speculation, shows that quite nicely. And to me it’s just another aspect of the gods coming to earth to once again modify our structures, both inner and outer, for their own reasons. So.

What about our daily quality of life? What about our deepening of our wisdom, what about being here now, instead of waiting for the next ‘shocking’ reveal??? Hmmmm? What about it?

What about us deciding what we need to enrich our lives and those around us so that we can reach some agreement on love and peace? What about deciding what we need to open our hearts and extend compassion and love to each other? What about learning to do that from a position of stable strength and deep understanding of your fellow next door – or a couple of communities away, or the world?

heaven2What are we doing or learning that could begin that process? Because I can just about bet that when that happens and it no longer matters who did what to whom, when, all that information that we think is so vital but can’t get to will become SELF APPARENT. And by that time, our particular flavor of bread and circus just won’t matter that much. I’m over the Saturday morning cartoons. I’m just done, over baked. I want to get out and stroll through a beautiful morning on a path to finding out what we need to do to create what Gaia keeps whispering in my ear is possible.