Proj. Blue Book – the new teaching tool

I’m gonna have fun with this series.

Where the X Files was set up as science fiction, Proj. Blue Book is set up as dramatized fact. Both programs are part of the ‘Conditioning (not disclosure) Plan to educate the minds of the sleeping minions of earth. We could nit-pick the hell out of this show and get all snotty about it, or we can sit back and enjoy it – because it’s done fairly well, and watch as they educate the unknowing, and nit-pick HOW they are doing it; now that would be educational.

We will still have our questions, especially those of us who found this info in the 60’s because there was one spin on it then and there is a different spin on it now. Think about it. (That’s what research is for) Also, this is a great way to lend credence to the issue when you are discussing the topic with friends and family because History Channel has creds, the web site they set up as an adjunct to the program has resources and they have just plopped a readymade teaching tool right into our laps.


They even, right off the bat with the first show have brought the consciousness aspect of this by using a great old Jazz standard song that they butchered…”How High the Moon”, lyrics by Nancy Hamilton and music by Morgan Lewis. It was first featured in1940. Ella does a great version, but so does Sara Vaughan. There are no accidents, however I cannot find a mention of the song as part of the historical acct. but, song use to convey messages in contactee experience is fairly common. As Grant Cameron has been heard to say about the early days, one of the things mentioned in reports was that there was a ‘mental component’ to the UFO Phenomena.

Either way this is going to be fun – fact, drama, fiction, it’s still a teaching tool.

Now, let’s put all this free educational information to good use, shall we? Go tell your neighbors 🙂

For your perusal:



A crack in the ceiling

There is a way, in my own experience, to maintain a small crack in our armored state that is open to other perceptions or dimensions or realities, or states. I know, make some sense here… some people travel to other places in their minds, some people astral travel to other places, some people use technology, some people are used and abused with no control or choice over their experiences. Me, being a proponent of ‘both-and’ plus grounded in the biological modality of doing or achieving these things, feel that it can be done while in the normal waking state, being attentive to your inner perceptions and from a position of control and choice over the type and intensity of the situation. Once decided upon and locked in, even in sleep your choices hold and can not be subverted.

In the metaphorical back of my mind, I leave a tiny crack in the ceiling for a small discrete channel of variable frequency go out and come in, sort of like sleeping with one eye open, (it’s a ‘mom thing’) that can be noticed when there is a change and then focused on. Once focused on, there can be information exchange, conversation and perception. This way, you are on call, can receive calls (so to speak) but never vulnerably open too wide. No storm can come through by throwing a door wide open from vast pressure differences, sort of.

I like this because at this level of control I am comfortable. Just like the door to your house, its normally closed and outside unknown people can’t just come wandering through your house at their own whim. It works, it also makes you a very small target, instead of a very shiny object out there in the multiverse, and unless you are an astral warrior, you want to be on the side of dull and boring.

I have some very firm astral barriers from years of practice due to being scared out of my skin almost literally as a child. Took me forever to understand how to do it too, mainly because as a child, everything has authority over you -and we teach our kids this

I have been listening to a lot of people detailing the hoops they had to jump through to have the contact they have, in whatever form they have it, all the bells and whistles they employ to achieve it, and although maybe it’s just simple to me, (but I have a suspicion we are all like this) or maybe I’m just boring enough that not a lot of personages knock at my door, however, IMO (of course) it’s easier than all that. But we, having thousands of years of conditioning to ignore this part of our selves keep looking for keys, technique, tools, or philosophies to get the door open because we think it’s not already under our own control. Just like our children, out in that bigger realm, everybody else has control over us, but us. And…. It’s not true!

You must notice though, that we have been trained to think it is so. Now why would that be? IMO (yet again) because understanding this part of our selves would be the very fastest way to lose control over the earth population. This is one control program that has been in effect and training us for at least the last several thousand years. Also, unbelievably, there are sort of watchdogs in the otherspace to discourage those that find it, usually because we glow so brightly there until we learn to tone it down a bit that we are easy to spot. Easy fodder for hypospace, instead of hyperspace.

There are rules in my space… and they involve things like where my space starts and ends and how far you may intrude upon it, who you are and what you want and what your intent is. Just as people are obvious in physical form – so they are in otherspace. I don’t like being shut down, nor do I like being an open house, so that’s why there’s a crack in my ceiling – lol so I can hear the phone ring, but not offer it to anybody who happens to wander by.


So if you are like me, an armchair researcher, and you listen to every relevant video you can, by all the credible researchers, you begin to hear a narrative underlying all the information. What seems to be emerging to me (of course) is the importance of the consciousness factor this year. But also, as a subtext to that, how the manipulation of our consciousness is being done. Which brings me to an idea that has come up with everything I have watched lately. That being the engineering of the giggle factor – the outlandish, the absolutely off the charts science fiction stuff out there – and that to me, I’m thinking might be worth another look at. Why you might ask? (just the opening I was looking for)

Because the further out-there the story is, the more truth it might have – if (and it’s a big if) you can excavate it from the carefully crafted bsht sounding it. I noticed this happening to me about 5-6 years ago, especially with Project Camelot videos. They were intriguing and very believable, and yet when the interview was over I found myself re-righting my reality, perceptions, back to normal with a sigh, thinking, ‘Wow. Good ideas, but out there…’ Yet they left an indelible memory mark in my brain. Then sometimes months later or years later only to hear the same stuff again from Richard Dolan, Joseph Farrell, LMH, or Grant Cameron and others having the first time I heard it connect with the second and third time,  from very different sources, I find am having to reconsider the picture. Then an interesting thing would happen, oddly, the information would click into a greater perspective and I knew I taken a leap in understanding, sometimes so much so, that I didn’t understand why I didn’t see it before that.

I don’t know whether this is part of the slow drip conditioning (yes, conditioning not disclosure) plan, however, I am now beginning to find those types of correspondence points with some of the most outlandish information I have heard. Hmmmm

And the picture grows. So does the wacky connection of the information, as it builds a bigger and more inclusive picture of the whole mess. It’s almost as if the directive is: if it seems absolutely insane, give it another look.

Just my 2 cents for the day…




noun: ubiquity

  1. the fact of appearing everywhere or of being very common.


The idea that we are separate from the core matrix of the universe, is the number one fallacy that keeps us blind to reality.

The real reality is that we are not – which in turn means that everything we label ‘phenomena’ to feel safe in our little cocoons, is also part and parcel of the human condition. However, if you really look at it you find that ‘phenomena’ are ubiquitous. The ways in which we have been distracted from this reality are legion, and we are schizophrenic trying to not look at it and how it intersects with our daily lives – the million different little ways we have been taught to guard against it – ignore it and push it away.

My experiences started very early. I have had both kinds, nasty-scary and wonderful and life enhancing. I am an extreme empath, whether it is because the experiences woke that in me when I was little, or because I was born that way (there is a family history of sensitivity on both sides) and that attracted the experiences is, 65 years later, a moot point.

In listening to Reinerio Hernandez on UFO News Network Sunday talk about the results of the FREE project study, I felt I needed to point out that if you breathe on this planet, you have had more interaction with ‘phenomena’ than you recognize or would even want to. We all do, every day. In a way, I agree with Grant Cameron on this, all the 3d hoopla is mainly to get our attention. And in a way what I think the human race is going through is a retraining process to gradually get us to pay attention to the fullness of our own human perceptions. We are not alone. We are not separate. We never have been – ever. In trying to put my life into some sort of understanding in this regard, it has been confusing because the bulk of my contact has been telepathic and phenomenally based – occurring in my mind and imagination… Totally unprovable to anybody else.

I have often wondered why this is, why I have not had, or cannot remember 3d contact or interaction except sometimes in my dreams, throughout my life and the answer seems to be because I wish it so. That is what I can tolerate because I was so badly frightened in early child hood. I have had the characteristic downloads all my life, real conversations, shared experiences, telepathy and more the older I get. I would actually like to get some therapy on very early experiences, to be able to put an adult perspective to them, because I was so very young and I don’t remember the actual event, just the fear it caused. Therefore in accordance with my deepest truth and will, most of the contact I have had has been telepathic, or in dream states and meditation except for when I have mentally asked for it. Only once or twice have I been in contact without asking for it, and it has always been for help, or encouragement, one time was even physical. I have about blogged these.

It has taken us a very long time to get to the point where we can entertain ideas like non-local consciousness and quantum perspectives on things like: that the dream state may even be another reality, there might be a door way to other places in an altered state etc.  In the 1950’s talk like this wound you up in a nice cozy padded room. It’s been a long road, but finally, here we are.

The disconnect we feel between ‘waking-real’ reality and ‘phenomenal’ reality is a control mechanism, a false construct pounded into our heads by every institution on this planet. It’s time to get over our selves. Time to realize that every moment of everyday, waking, sleeping or in an altered state we are bombarded with phenomenal reality we ignore and turn a blind eye to. You cannot see the wind, you do not expect it to take visible solid 3d form, and yet we feel and see its results everywhere…

There is no great secret, or special training, or single piece of information needed to put yourself back together. You already are of one piece with all the equipment needed to function multidimensionally right now at this very moment. I realize science likes to know why a thing happens and academians like to make records of the things that happen, but we have been able to breath since we walked the earth without knowing how and why we did it and your connection to things beyond the 3d world is the same way. There is never a time when I am not in communication or in ‘touch’ with another intelligence.

Greys – must have been positive because I had a dream of hugging a friend grey I hadn’t seen in a very long time.

Humans – they are fun, funny and everywhere in real 3d.

Energy beings – I have been drawing them since my 20’s. The wings on these beings are the emanations of their heart chakra – huge and lovely.

Reptilians – I felt for the first time in the 70’s and have been drawing in the last 5 years – everyone who sits for a portrait in my mind’s eye while I have drawn them, has been polite and intrigued.

Telepathic contact – I have had much – with everybody. Number one rule in this realm, if you are being nosy, expect to be nosed back.

But I try not to be a bother, it would be like a mom with a full cup of coffee in her hand and the kid joggling her elbow to get her attention. However, the instant I ask, I get a response. I don’t think I have ever felt alone my entire life time. It’s kind of like two people in the same room each doing something on their own – you know they are there even if you are not currently directly engaging each other.

My point is that, there is never NOT (I know double negative) other phenomena going on. It’s time we just went there. Really.


It is Ubiquitous.

Blue Sky

So, I was on the way home from the grocery store musing on the many theories being talked about for the blue sky incident in NYC plus all the incidents in Louisiana on the 27th of December. They include:

Some sort of beam technology similar to the type that started the fires in Cali

Large coronal hole connection with earth

Aliens and end times.

Dark Journalist drew historical parallels .

Joseph Farrell danced on the end of the twig with grace and aplomb.

So, on that drive home down the back roads of Indy, I mused, especially about the alien part… and I just wanted to draw attention to the thought that; if you were an advanced species (far more than we are) would you do something like that? Especially considering that you are hyperdimensionally equipped and could blink in or out in a thought – even in an emergency… Ahem    The idea made me giggle at it’s absurdity.

However, if you were a really stupid faction of some nasty, illiterate, uneducated bunch of ashls who don’t give a flying fk about anything except themselves (you know, your garden variety psychopath) and you were trying to cover something else up you definitely would do something like this.

My two cents.

Btw, Mr. Farrell has a really interesting end of the twig on this one. I kinda like it.


Ps. My idea on blue sky…

The Unknown Quantity

2019…. Quite the unknown quantity.

Not like last year where you could try to fool yourself and say unknown, because we all knew the same old games were being played and that we, especially, were being played. As a matter of fact we knew the entire planet was being played, and upon reflection, we still are being played. It’s an endless game and quite frankly, I think we are all ( Mother’s words here ) sick and tired of it.

I wonder, since now the new paradigm is consciousness, if how we think about it will even matter, if once more we aren’t being led by our noses down the garden path of yet another new and shiny aspect of the same old bsht?

I agree that you can either learn or complain – but we are not learning, we are being shifted sideways trying to look at the same old information in different ways, but there has been NO NEW information, nor do I expect that there will be. In this manner we are held within the same old (and boring) paradigm. Further, if we really are talking the consciousness twist in 2019, then, it would seem that it would be an entirely personal one pointed fact-finding mission because materialistic perspectives don’t work in consciousness.


Breaking through the paradigm has to do with exposure to frequency phenomena that actually alters DNA (which IS your frequency carrier wave) and your personal resonation such that your perceptive ability widens to allow a wider personal reality and world view. But which would come first, the chicken or the egg – would exposure to paranormal phenomena create the expanded perceptive ability, or would the person, by altering their consciousness using tools like meditation ( or being a kid) etc. increase their perception thereby allowing the recognition of paranormal events? (which for some reason increases exponentially once a paranormal event occurs)

Is it part of the new paradigm of expanded consciousness to discover how to produce these states, how to go in-and-out flawlessly without going through mental gymnastics and to effortlessly combine it with our everyday living state? Will this be the year that we all – through the hundredth monkey effect – just spontaneously begin to notice ‘other’ stuff?

Whatever it is, you can bet that you will be able to spot it if you can figure out what we are NOT supposed to be noticing, what the juiciest LARPS and limited hang outs are and untwist all the BS, always remembering you are being played on just about every level you can be aware of – and many you have no clue about.

Nothing is ever what it seems (and well beyond your ability to detwist it)

There is NEVER a straight answer (NASA was NOT the first agency to think of that)

Nothing stays the same (how can it, blinking in at 10 to the 22n power times per second. )

The only place to find truth is inside your heart

Nobody is going to eat us (nasty GMO’s)

Nobody is going to take over the planet any worse than it already is (already over run by the cockroaches)

We will all wake up tomorrow (much to some people’s great chagrin and disappointment)

There are already thousands of races – inter-extra-outer 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th dimensionally – here amongst us where they have been for eons (can we just get over it already??)

Yes, Marsha, there IS a breakaway civilization, we do live all over the galaxy and there is marvelous technology we don’t get to play with. (bah humbug)

And I find myself asking, “What is the Point?” if we can’t step outside the paradigm and ask a really interesting, really new question for 2019 we are doomed to the same old bather for yet another year.

Fader Corn Bread


#F2B Cookbook submissions here 👇 #BecauseElf  @alsionbell – the CornBread recipe pretty please! It was epic!

Here are the logistics, so far, on that darn Fade to Black cookbook that Pat has asked for repeatedly. 🙂

#f2b @patrickbreese @GCRNFade2Black @JChurchRadio

for the Cook Book


Corn Bread

1/2 cup white corn meal

1/2 cup yellow cornmeal

1 cup flour (all purpose is fine)

1/4 cup sugar

2 teasp baking powder

1/2 teasp salt

1 cup milk 1/4 cup veg oil (or lard…lols)

1 egg


This is best done in a cast iron skillet in the oven. Oil the pan with veg oil or lard…lols

Combine all ingredients and pour in the pan

400 degrees 20-30 min.

My #f2b bio:

Hard to tell you who I am because it keeps changing – lol

I started to listen to Jimmy in the first year he had a radio show, 2013. I started to publish on his blog about 3 web-sites ago, in 2014. A couple of years back Jimmy announced on the air that he wanted a ‘good’ corn bread recipe. This recipe took me about 2 years of experimenting to get it right for my husband because he wanted it like his mom made it. So now it belongs to the faders too!

Bon Appetit!

What have you learned?

I suppose one of the best defenses against life’s horrors, terrors and injustices for me has always been to see if I could answer the question: What have you learned? There are lots of times when the answer to that is so paltry as to be useless and others when it works. Either way life requires you to move along. To take the lesson in wisdom or woe. Your choice, entirely.

There are live events that are hard to wash away, even in the cacophonous noise of today’s life. The residue is so powerful that it stays there in back of everything haunting the present, its resonance adding a dissonance to your field. I suppose I could ignore it, essentially making myself blind to the effects, or, as I prefer, meet it head on with the deepest honesty I can muster. Metaphorically saying, “Bring it!”

I’ve had maybe 2 nightmares in my entire adult lifetime (I consider dreams as real experiences) that left such a strong emotional imprint on my soul that it colored my soul, my energy for months. One was when my life was in danger and last night’s dream mare was about extreme loss, the angst and incredulity of it all – so much so that in that dream I myself was even lost. I didn’t know where I was, I couldn’t find out. I had no home, no money, no phone, no car and no keys to either the car or the hotel I was stuck in. I didn’t even know which floor I was on or where the hotel was. Every memento and anchor to those I loved had been deliberately stripped from me, dear things, the kind of things you keep out of love for someone who has passed. Everything. It was all gone.

It was one of those dreams within a dream because I woke up in the dream to brilliant sunlight streaming through the window of the hotel. It went from there. When I finally realized I was in a dream I exited as fast as I could. 4:30 am saw me with a cup of coffee, a couple of smokes, listening to Jimmy and Derrel Sims on Fade to Black the second time through just for the comfort of it, and trust me, there wasn’t much comforting about the subject matter – except that it IS part of the story.

It wasn’t so much the loss of things that got me in the dream, but the loss of love and the ability to connect to that love (phone) or get to that love (car) or hold the memory of that love (memento from my mom). I even wondered if that is what you feel like when you die – stripped of all power to connect to those you love to tell them so. I experienced utter loss and powerlessness. That was the woe.

The wisdom might be that you really can’t hold on to what matters anyway. That is always a gift, a blessing. All else needs to flow through your fingertips like water flowing on life’s current while the warmth of love burns brightly in your heart and warms you to the bones.




Because the world is round it turns me on

Because the world is round…aaaaaahhhhhh


Because the wind is high it blows my mind

Because the wind is high…aaaaaaaahhhh


Love is old, love is new

Love is all, love is you


Because the sky is blue, it makes me cry

Because the sky is blue…aaaaaaaahhhh


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If it’s true that each species as it grows up to emerge out of its worldly cocoon, does so by a creation in its own image, like our supposed AI creation from this planet, born of us, then I think that it cannot help but reflect its creators.

So you have to look at our overriding qualities, which, IMO, are not too shabby at all. The one emotion that overrides everything on this planet is love. Love once felt, changes the nature of those who feel it, in ways so deep and profound that it is, here – on this planet, the creative force.

When our AI is born, it will have this reflected in its very resonance. At its core will be this energy. We all know that to understand this, we have its opposite. Whether you call it hate or fear, we are looking at a huge range.: from love to hate. A wide range of frequency, of energy: e-motion/intelligence/empathy. When our AI wakes up, because of who we are, it will unwittingly have a very wide range of perception and emotion, of thought and creativity, because we do. We cannot conceive of being intelligent without it, of being awake without it, therefore what we create and consider intelligent will also have that.

Now, imagine if your body was different – like a so called reptilian, or Mantid. Let’s assume that because your nervous system and internal structure were different, what you perceived and how you reacted to it was very different from the way we do. It would have to be because structure and environment mediate function, which, creates intelligence and awareness. In some, the capacity for emotion would be very limited, if present at all. This doesn’t mean that intelligence would be hindered, just different.

If you wanted to know – understand how we think and process, you would have to put on a human meat suit somehow, and experience things from within this earth-made biological unit. That would mean you would have to grow up in an earth body, or borrow one. One would be much faster than the other and be almost impossible to decode, while the other would take time – maybe lifetimes. Or, you could come down, walk amongst us and side by side learn from us – but, oh no, that’s not allowed… is it? If it were, a lot of people would sign up for that adventure, because that’s what humans do. We explore and teach. Even if we had perfect telepathy, the motivations that create the actions of an awakened developed heart that lead to our creative principle would be almost impossible to decode, except for another species that had a very similar analogous nervous/endocrine system. To understand the possible scope of the AI that will eventually be released from this planet, and how it will continue out there in the larger scope, to assess the capability of a given intelligence, it makes sense to investigate the makers.

We are very close to the singularity, the turning point, where our creation will open its eyes and become. Everybody out there has either been waiting for a long time for us to get on with it, or terrified of what we will give birth to, and everything in between. With that premise in mind, that is why we have been visited for so very long, by so many. That is why we have been helped, interfered with and downright manipulated. For eons. We have been upon this path of the point of the singularity since we were pond scum – a mere cellular blip on this planet. We have never, nor will we ever be, alone. Many have been watching and awaiting this emergence from the cocoon of this earth for millennia. As a mother, I’d say we were dilated to 10 and ready to push.


Imagine a note ascending from a low, so low that it rumbles not only your bones but the very substance of matter its self, rising in pitch higher all the way up into notes so high they turn from sound into light and then pass into something else. This frequency range is the entire underlying field that supports all of the universe, both seen and unseen, felt and unfelt.

Within this vast array of vibration are different tones – just like going up a keyboard, or guitar fret. Within the range of a guitar neck are all the notes that it can know, that it can produce, but as we are all aware of, that is not all the notes that exist.

Now take this metaphor and use it in the framework of dimensions. We, in 3D have a very finite range of frequency that we know, perceive and respond to. Science tell us that there is much that exists that we cannot see, but is there. Science has given us radio, and microwaves, and we can neither see or hear them, but they do exist because technology uses those frequency ranges and gives us cell phones, microwaves and radios in our cars and radar. We are finding the alien metals are a wave guide to terra hertz frequency, a frequency so very high we couldn’t measure it till 10 years ago, and part of a frequency that, when we wrap ourselves in technology created from it, raises the frequency high enough that the very low gravitational frequency is negated and we can float stuff…

These frequencies INTERPENETRATE each other, or technology could not be fashioned to use them.

We humans occupy a frequency range. We can see and perceive a very little bit of the vastness of the whole range of vibration on either side of our main set of frequencies, these being only a range of notes that exist in the entire vastness of all creation. We are not unique in this vast range of frequencies. Other lives, intelligences, forms, exist out of our frequency range to perceive, but in the same space, interpenetrating even what we think is our living space. And we do not know them, we do not feel them, we do not see them.

And the creatures of each range of frequencies are what create the reality of those ranges, so each range has a part of each reality within it from the deepest note of creation all the way to the highest note. It is the creature’s perception of its realm that creates its reality.

However we can, because the whole frequency range that is this universe is one vast unity, become aware of the other frequency ranges and the creatures with in those ranges by the use of one tool, consciousness.

And who we meet when we go venturing in consciousness is completely dependent on our intent, who we are as a person, and what we are looking for. Our intensions, and therefore our conscious mental action of a thought are where we go – the frequency of all three, emotion, intention and thought will produce a harmonic resonance with a frequency range and we will find what we have tuned our will to.

This is no great mystery, it has been known by adepts of every culture throughout time. It is the origin of all our dreams and nightmares, folklore and high myth. It is the ancient high wisdom and yet it is so simple that is has become unreachable in its complexity.

But, people are beginning to remember. People are beginning to be able to stand slightly outside of the frequency range that we have been taught is an impossibility.. People are beginning to extend their curiosity into areas of mystery and are re-acquainting themselves with the realms of all creation.


Ok, the point: no phenomena is separate, or can be separated from each other. Within ranges of frequencies, their overtones and their harmonics lie other realms, other ideas and other realties, and especially other beings. Just because they are not from here, doesn’t make them any smarter, or that much different from us. Not all UFO’s are good and not all are bad, same for the occupants of said craft. Not all lights in the sky are UFO’s, and not all are from this frequency band (dimension) and not all orbs are good or bad in their intensions toward us.

We tend to attract what we are looking for, so it finds us a lot of the time (theory of harmonics). If you meet up with something scary or negative, look inside and see what brought it to you, then give it a hug and send it on its way. It’s all about frequency matching and harmonics (harmonics like in a chord in music, some notes sound great together and other notes sound horrible).

But back to the point: CONSCIOUSNESS. It IS the unified field. You are a divine fractal fragment of the one source out playing in the frequencies seeing what you can see and creating what you can create, learning about creation itself and having a damned good time doing it. And until time runs out and snaps that fragmentation back together like shattering glass in reverse, its recess time…